special days...

so here's a resolve: I shall make tomorrow beautiful...memorable. Not have my mood swings, be nice to people, not snap and not shout, keep it all under control, for once - smile for no reason, laugh till i cry... lemme make it special... for no reason except that I'm living it... coz I'm spl... coz this day is mine... I'm mine... so as everyone says - it all feels so good - my heart beats harder in anticipation for a day so special... for everyday so special...

... and then... such is life!!

close ure eyes...

thr r days - tht v can easily do without - but thts an option v havent been born with...

yet - thr r things, ppl, places, thots n memories tht can make everything alrite - something like the sorcerer's stone -- and the elixir of life for the uninitiated. So jus close ure life n live tht thot - tht person - tht plc - and ul know tht life is not a zero sum game. its gud... its positive...

so close ure eyes and take a deep breath... it leads me to wot keeps me away frm my temper -- and i need to think of it more thez days (lets not think bt tht rt now)....so eyes closed and deep breathing -- and therz the cool breeze... and im in a meadow... lush green -- and golden brown contrasts -- daisies smiling back at u (arent they the friendliest flowers) butterflies - rabbits - birds - trees -- mango trees -- do u know tht mango smell wen the tree flowers... its one of the sweetest smells in the world... jus stand in the meadow and take in the blend -- its amazing how pure things can be in a place untouched by man...how u can tell them apart and yet not question thr blend...

have u heard the sound of a shallow stream - water on rocks - flowin - gushin - rocks u can walk on... in ankle deep water - tht cn tk u with it - the chil tht wil travel thru ure body purifying u of all...

so thts my place - my dream - whr i go wen i dnt want to go anywhr - whr im wen im nowhere - and where i wil be forever the day i find it...

Re-living...

Has it ever happened to you that in the span of a song you saw a whole lot of your life.... happening in front of you as if you were just a bystander - part of a larger audience - seeing your life unfold... you know whats coming next but its yet interesting - you yet feel all you ever felt as you watch - i gues coz its ure life -- its true -- it happened. It was pretty -- it is yet pretty -- with a promise of being beautiful.

And you are watching -- almost like the movies -- u laugh u cry u meet ppl u make frens u fight u love u lie and u tell the truth -- everything is so temporary -- shots change -- scenes change -- ppl change -- life changes -- and you feel you will never be sad again... more scenes and you feel you feel you'd never smile again -- its funny how feelings so ephemeral can feel so permanent -- how you can feel them under your skin...

you feel you are dying -- you feel you won't see another day -- you realise that was years ago -- you realise thats plural -- and then the song changes...have you ever seen your life in 4:37 min ???

Re-living...

Has it ever happened to you that in the span of a song you saw a whole lot of your life.... happening in front of you as if you were just a bystander - part of a larger audience - seeing your life unfold... you know whats coming next but its yet interesting - you yet feel all you ever felt as you watch - i gues coz its ure life -- its true -- it happened. It was pretty -- it is yet pretty -- with a promise of being beautiful.

And you are watching -- almost like the movies -- u laugh u cry u meet ppl u make frens u fight u love u lie and u tell the truth -- everything is so temporary -- shots change -- scenes change -- ppl change -- life changes -- and you feel you will never be sad again... more scenes and you feel you feel you'd never smile again -- its funny how feelings so ephemeral can feel so permanent -- how you can feel them under your skin...

you feel you are dying -- you feel you won't see another day -- you realise that was years ago -- you realise thats plural -- and then the song changes...have you ever seen your life in 4:37 min ???

taru n i...

it is strange how ppl can belong... and connect...i've hardly made any frens... and i've barely kept any of em...and yet here's this woman - i know will be around when i'm 70 - callin me n askin if i wanted to go get a mississippi mudslice - and how abhishek bachchan stil luks like microwaved truffle...thts how v talk... in choclate...its very dificult to imagine life widout this gal... taru -- my alter-ego