special days...

so here's a resolve: I shall make tomorrow beautiful...memorable. Not have my mood swings, be nice to people, not snap and not shout, keep it all under control, for once - smile for no reason, laugh till i cry... lemme make it special... for no reason except that I'm living it... coz I'm spl... coz this day is mine... I'm mine... so as everyone says - it all feels so good - my heart beats harder in anticipation for a day so special... for everyday so special...

... and then... such is life!!

close ure eyes...

thr r days - tht v can easily do without - but thts an option v havent been born with...

yet - thr r things, ppl, places, thots n memories tht can make everything alrite - something like the sorcerer's stone -- and the elixir of life for the uninitiated. So jus close ure life n live tht thot - tht person - tht plc - and ul know tht life is not a zero sum game. its gud... its positive...

so close ure eyes and take a deep breath... it leads me to wot keeps me away frm my temper -- and i need to think of it more thez days (lets not think bt tht rt now)....so eyes closed and deep breathing -- and therz the cool breeze... and im in a meadow... lush green -- and golden brown contrasts -- daisies smiling back at u (arent they the friendliest flowers) butterflies - rabbits - birds - trees -- mango trees -- do u know tht mango smell wen the tree flowers... its one of the sweetest smells in the world... jus stand in the meadow and take in the blend -- its amazing how pure things can be in a place untouched by man...how u can tell them apart and yet not question thr blend...

have u heard the sound of a shallow stream - water on rocks - flowin - gushin - rocks u can walk on... in ankle deep water - tht cn tk u with it - the chil tht wil travel thru ure body purifying u of all...

so thts my place - my dream - whr i go wen i dnt want to go anywhr - whr im wen im nowhere - and where i wil be forever the day i find it...